So as you may be aware, in the summer of 2015 I had one of my giant meltdowns and spent two months in a psychiatric hospital. While there I met many people who I formed bonds with. Some of us have managed to stay in touch. I’m so thankful for the people I met there. I’ve seen so many heartbreaking and inspirational stories up close and it has made me a better and stronger person. A person who wants to fight for the happiness of those wonderful people, who made me laugh and smile during a time when I didn’t think that would be possible.
Seeing someone hit rock-bottom and then fight their way back up is truly awe-inspiring. A few months after I had left the hospital, I was out in town and I ran into a girl who I remembered from a support group. At the time she had not left her house in months due to crippling anxiety. To see her out and about was a truly victorious moment, though it might not seem like much to most people.
These seemingly small victories have been marked in my memory and give me endless inspiration. Because truly, they are not small, they are mighty and they are the stepping stones for greater achievements that will only continue to blossom.
Many of us couldn’t even imagine that we would ever get through those dark times. I have lost contact with a lot of those people but wherever they are, I hope that they are doing better and that they know they have love, support and admiration.
One of my friends Erin, who was also in Pats with me continues to make me immensely proud. She decided to use that wonderful humour she kept us all entertained with, to start up a comedy society with an emphasis on removing the stigma from mental health. The money raised for the comedy gigs is donated to suicide prevention and mental-health charities across Ireland. I cannot even express the pride this makes me feel. And this is only the beginning.
There are so many people I could mention, that I would not even know where to start or end, and hopefully I can pay them all tribute in some way at some stage. But the main person I would like to mention at this time is a wonderful person called Mason.
In a sense we got to witness the birth of Mason, because during this time, he came out as trans. And thus, the name Mason was born. Seeing the happiness on Masons face every time someone called him by his chosen name was amazing. He started to shop in the men’s sections, got a haircut, new clothes and the smile on his face grew wider and wider.
But sadly for trans people, despite the huge relief of coming out after a life-time of suffering, the struggle doesn’t end there. The process of transitioning can be extremely challenging and slow, due to the health systems in place. Seeing someone blossom and become happier in themselves, only to see that hope slowly fade away is a sad and disheartening thing to see. That is not something I could bare to see happen, after so much progress has been made.
Trans people are some of the most vulnerable and at risk people on the planet. When you feel like you are living in the wrong body every day and every aspect of life is a struggle. Mason is still waiting to get hormones before any surgeries can be possible. Mason has been incredibly brave and positive during this time and has made so many changes to his life, each change bringing him more hope and happiness. I think it’s really important to commend the bravery and strength of trans people. There is not a lot of trans visibility in this country, but that’s not to say that there’s not a lot of trans people who are privately struggling.
So many people want all these material gifts for Christmas but for some people, all they want is happiness and to feel comfortable in their own skin. Obviously not just for Christmas, for life. But I do feel now is a good a time as any to send some love and support to Mason, and to other trans people in Ireland, and across the globe. So please if you guys could help me spread some love and positivity that would be much appreciated.
Hope is a wonderful thing, that is hard to hold onto. There is no such thing as too much love or support, so let’s spread it around and infect the universe.
Thanks for reading. Lots of love